October 2011
1 post
i hate myself
i’m taking you home right now so i can get some oxygen and quit while i’m ahead when really i want to watch the way my sweater makes your shoulders look while you are glancing anywhere but my face and whispering words i can’t hear like fragility like subtlety like a girl like the way her fingers used to trace the details of my spine like the way i know your pale skin would blend into my sheets...
February 2010
2 posts
i hope
you get the fuck out of austin before i get there. the both of you.
right now
what’s making me feel better is the thought of getting a cute little kitten friend to share an apartment with.
December 2009
2 posts
Winter break! to do list:
Apply to St. Edwards, Southwestern, SVA and U of H :|
Go Christmas shopping
Buy pretty winter clothes!
Knit a hat for Logan<3
Get my hips pierced!
Read a good book
Turn eighteen!
Make some art that is not shitty
Relaxxx
Begin writing
Balance some shit out
Understand
November 2009
3 posts
THIS IS WHY I'M NOT SORRY
every night i think that i have never been so angry or so upset. i always outdo myself. if you say one more fucking thing about the sacrifices you make for me. okay, so you understand. that’s nice. that’s so thoughtful of you, to say that you understand and you know why i’m going out of my fucking mind worried about WHAT YOU’RE REALLY THINKING and WHAT YOU REALLY WANT and WHAT THE FUCK YOU’RE...
Watchasking michelle to homecoming :D
October 2009
3 posts
Whenever I breathe out, you're breathing it in
today i felt very anxious so i went to the park and had a cigarette. i think i would feel much better if i just breathed air.
monkey and bear
i haven’t done my homework in a week and have never cared less about that. it’s been sad sad sad days recently and my priorities have shifted. they will return, but not today. on that note, and just for further clarification:
if i die, i DO NOT want ANY ASPECT of Christianity mentioned at my funeral, such as the suggestion that jesus is sitting next to my friends and family in the 4th...
August 2009
2 posts
Xiu Xiu vs. Modest Mouse: a pop (just kidding)...
right now i am listening to music that should sound very loud, but it isn’t. i can barely hear it. i can’t figure out why, everytime i turn it up it gets quieter. i think it’s sort of like when you eat something sweet after something sweeter. something extreme then something subtle. i am going to start listening to music very quietly so that i can hear loud things again.
i seem...
June 2009
1 post
if anyone stalked me...
they would see me naked ALL THE TIME. seriously, i’m way too confident in the privacy of my own home. i need to get some blinds. i want red ones.
i leave for new york city in 1 week and 3 days. i am so nervous. i am so excited. i am so fucking worried. today i did a nude charcoal drawing of a friend of mine. stab me in the chest. ANYWAY. i like it, but there are so many things about it that...
May 2009
3 posts
March 2009
3 posts
good food/good books
i just ate dinner, but as soon as that finishes digesting (did you know that if you rub your stomach clockwise, it speeds up digestion? just don’t go the other way!) i’m going to eat a piece of flourless chocolate cake. it’s the shit. right now my mom and brother are eating glucose free, which completely eliminates wheat/flour from their diets. this is because glucose gives my...
OH MY GOD
I LOVE WATCHING ATTRACTIVE BOYS
February 2009
2 posts
for the record
if i die, please first doante any organs possible, then burn my body and scatter my ashes in a cornfield
thank you
January 2009
4 posts
because i often say "this is bullshit."
all day there has been a piece of skin hanging off of the roof of my mouth. i don’t mind it, really. it’s given me something to do.
i have spent the majority of tonight doing the following:
feeling the roof of my mouth with my tongue
being mildly pissed off
sitting down
standing up
putting off my homework every ten minutes
making a mental list of my favorite Ani Difranco songs
...
Twitter / emmiiillllyyyyy →
uninteresting practical thoughts
recently i’ve been finding it more and more difficult to go to school. i remember sort of enjoying it at the beginning of the year, but that feeling has completely vanished. i just have to keep telling myself that next year i’m a senior and i get two (2) (TWO!!!) off periods. then i have to start thinking about college. this summer i’m going to go to chicago and new york to visit...
dream
woman passing by: what good is a woman who always does as she's told?
me: what
woman passing by: shipley's donuts!
woman passing by, gypsy lady, and myself: surprised laughter