Xiu Xiu vs. Modest Mouse: a pop (just kidding) culture metaphor representing my current situation as influenced by chuck klosterman, OR, i cant do anything for myself
right now i am listening to music that should sound very loud, but it isn’t. i can barely hear it. i can’t figure out why, everytime i turn it up it gets quieter. i think it’s sort of like when you eat something sweet after something sweeter. something extreme then something subtle. i am going to start listening to music very quietly so that i can hear loud things again.
i seem to be incapable of spending time alone. i used to like myself a lot more, i think. i can’t really figure out when that time was though. i am the most indecisive person i have ever met. these are the things of which i am sure, and there are few:
- i do not believe in god
- i am happy about this
- i do not like hurting other people
- i like creating things
lying is messy. remember this, also remember that you are always being lied to by someone.
i have wasted so much time.
